The empty hole in my heart

Sometimes I feel like I am actively searching for something and being positive;

sometimes I just leave all the things aside, pretending nothing happened, and let the time passing like flying.

Always, I realize there is something I don't have, my deficiencies.

Always, the time I reach my goal, so does the passion fades away.

I got confused. Why I cannot even know myself? What's wrong with me? Why I cannot be consistent.

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Long to be home for the past few months. By this time, I am not sure I really want to go back home, or this is just a way to pacify my unease heart.

Is there really a so called home? or all of my anticipation simply comes from and distorts by my naive imagination.

Is there really a life goal? or we are simply an biological individuals, waiting for the day to decease. Ha... I kinda like this idea.

The more I know about the world, the stupider I feel I am. Why everything can get so complicate and there's no simple way out? Well, it's a good time to confess that you're a idiot. Good Idea. Good night... Good morning

Suddenly, the world needs me

I can feel it

Francesca's

This is my second time in visiting coffee shop. Francesca's Desert is like the coffee shop I familiar with in Taiwan. Internet (power outlet of course), coffee, and cozy environment are the three essential components for this kind of shops, and Francesca's meet all these requirements. It locates on the 9th street, the most popular site except down town I would say. Here, you can rarely see a house higher than two floors. The atmosphere is relax and agreeable with good painting decorations.

Anyway, I kind of like this place. Hope this place will be "the place" for me to work, study, and enjoy the warmth of weekend sunshine.

Alas, this place (I mean Durham) is too small and few pictures can be found on internet. I'll take some pictures of this lovely place next time.

心情算是有好一點了, thanks to the power of music

被時間追趕的日子,連它怎麼溜走的不知道

赫然發現自己看事情的角度還是有限

心胸格局依舊狹隘

信心尚未都沒建立

不設限未來的我會在哪逐夢

只願朝著自己所謂的真理邁進

哪些美與感動,才有追求的意義

Close

Again, I am so close to what I want myself to achieve.

Again, I fail to do so.

Sit. Think.

I feel like losing the ability of thinking. Not enough of caffeine?

And I found that without drink a cup of coffee in the morning, that day is basically a waste.

This semester I have different schedule, so basically I am all along in most of the classes.

First time, I realize there is no friend and how I crave for one, just one.

Looking on the bright side, it is a great opportunity for me to really know some friends. Only if I can take off my pride and join the crowd, and talk.

How I want to join these people, discussing the issues we care. Hope I am not going to sit here all by myself, again, and again.

盡頭

好像慢慢浮現了,掐指一算,似乎也該到了這個時候

從來都沒搞清楚自己要什麼,順從自己腦中恣意的揮舞青春

心飛了,或不飛,抑或想飛了

動靜拿捏不定,曾經的自信滿溢如今也蕩然無存

舞劍飲酒,穿梭到另外一扇時空的門

帶不走的,還是要留下